Caught In a Loop

 Oy.  While I was in Indiana I got a message from Rose about meeting up and seeing JJ.  She is getting so big. Almost a year and a half old now.  It's been several months again since I have seen her. I didn't think it through and said something to Jodi about it.  

And the storm has begun.  Jodi and Rose don't have a great relationship.  So she doesn't see JJ as much as she would like.  And each of them will give you reasons why and they don't match up.  I always figure there are three sides to every story.  The third side is the truth which is somewhere in the middle.  

So when I opened my mouth, I think Jodi felt a lot of jealousy.  Because I was going to get to see JJ and she isn't.  Now at the time I commented that I  had a message and I said yes, but no specific plan was made.  I did comment that my grandchildren were here so it would be wonderful to meet this upcoming week or two as that way my ginger girl could chase JJ around park. A park was the offer and one that works great.  But that was as far as it went.  I left the ball in Rose's court. It's her child and her plan.  I'm just really open to it.  

Yesterday the kids and I went to a movie.  I bought the tickets last week.  I walk out of the movie theater to Jodi messaging me and asking if I was seeing JJ today at a park.  And more.  I said no of course as I was not.  But then I was afraid I had a miscue with Rose.  So I messaged her and asked.  Nope I was good.  

I am feeling very much caught in the middle and need to extricate myself.  I like Rose.  And I like Jodi.  And I love JJ. I think that children need all the people in their lives who will just love them.  Unfortunately for all the relationships I think I am going to have to learn to keep my mouth shut and keep every one compartmentalized.